Little Lady Lumps

My sentinel lymph node disections were clear! Full pathology comes back next week but it looks like I have a good chance of skipping chemo. I'm in a lot of pain but am on the path to healing. Thank you for all your big prayers, kindness and support!

So what's it like? For one, it will likely take 2 hours to write this as I keep falling asleep  while upright (truth be known its taken over 2 days.) Who knew that Morphine would make me wired and I would be up most of the first night. Finally, we got the pain meds figured out yesterday and I'm doing better... But I can't stay awake. 

We left the house at 5am. I kissed the kids (they didn't know it was "the day" as I didn't want them to be scared at school.)

Surgery was scheduled for 7:30am. I can't explain my feelings. Anxious, sad, nervous but more than anything...READY! I really just wanted this cancer out of my body.

The anesthesiologist was great. After I checked in with my surgeons, he slipped me a "mickey" and all was good. I kissed John and told him I'd see him soon and got rolled into the OR. They work quickly there. Once the oxygen mask went on, I was out.

When I woke up, my mom and John were there. They were happy and told me that my lymph nodes were clear. I was groggy - in and out of sleep - but remember feeling so relieved. My mom said I was smiling. She asked why I was smiling and I said, "because God loves me."

I am now covered in pink. Pillows, blankets, pajamas. I have had an amazing outpouring of support. Hundreds of "likes" and "comments" on Facebook. Beautiful flowers from work. I will upload pictures to the blog later from a computer. This isn't quite so easy. I hurt. And the journey has just begun.  The reality is that my beautiful voluptuous breasts are now little lady lumps that are going to take months to reconstruct. One malignant tumor was very high on my chest wall and I will have a long road of recovery.  BUT I AM ALIVE!!! I am going to forge ahead with great strength and I will not fear.

Heal me,  Lord , and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise. (Jeremiah 17:14 NIV)

Thank you to everyone that has reached out. Thank you to my two angel visitors yesterday. And thank you mom and dad for helping keep things normal at home. The highlight of my day was seeing my kiddos. And of course my hubby; who just started a new job and is bouncing between that and me. Yesterday he brought me some VS pj's and a size B wireless bra - it looks huge!

 I understand we will have a  food  extravaganza at the house. I will be happy to get home today. I have many FAITHFUL FRIENDS at work. I just want to heal and rest. That's about all I've got in me.