I've been taking a blog break. I'm actually struggling, even now, to find the right words to express how I'm feeling. I have to be honest: this week (emotionally) has been the hardest yet. I'm coming out of the fog of the last few weeks; maybe months and realizing what's happened. Some parts are a blur. And some (like the painful reality of a cancer diagnosis) are so vivid you want to forget them.
I've decided to hold off on any further tissue expansions until after the New Year. I've pushed myself pretty hard through this recovery and I need a break. My body has had enough and I'm starting to enjoy clarity of mind again at work. I just want to enjoy the holidays with my husband and my beautiful children without thinking about my next steps to becoming whole again. I have been greatly blessed. My family. My friends. My positive prognosis. But this hasn't been easy and there's more to come. I want to hit "pause" just for a bit.
I do want to thank all of our family and friends who have prayed, sent kind words, brought dinners, visited, called and supported us. Having to jump back into reality has made me slow on my thank you notes but please know that you are all greatly appreciated. Your support has been a blessing.
Finally (for now) as all of our hearts weep for the families in Connecticut. Those beautiful children and brave teachers. Lost lives. Unexplainable horror. It makes my experience seem like nothing. Please continue your prayers for them.
